This morning as soon as my eyes open the fight for equal measures begins.
It feels like a big fight within my body. The shake starts through the body and the rebellion continues.
Possessed by a condition that takes over until I reach for those pills and demand some equilibrium
It’s a weird feeling, like two halves fighting for attention.
My mind intact tells my body to move. My bodies response is not now!
The fight for equal measures is now very apparent. Mind and body! In no way are they synchronised.
This is tough! It’s physical and it’s very emotional. Every morning this battle takes place. Not a day missed- not one.
Unfortunately there is only one winner- short term!
It’s at this time things become very real the darkest time of the day. The frustration, the anger, the tears but the determination is the biggest driving force.
The determination (oh and the pills) get things back on track.
Things start sliding into place slowly. The rebellion reunite. The mind informs the body of it next move. The body listens, processes and acknowledges the request.
Slowly there is action.